WTF?

I got bad news today and, compounded with the shitty things that are happening to my friends, it became too overwhelming. 

I cried on the phone to my mother, heaving sobs, in which I contemplated becoming a barista or becoming a hermit in her basement. 

God I feel like such a failure at life.  SUCH. A. FAILURE. 

When did I go from being the go-getter in college, getting EVERYTHING I wanted, to this absymal human who uses her prestigious degree to do a shitty job (which plenty of people tell me I don't know how to do) and have NO one want me to work for them? 

When?  When?